The new me...
I guess this is the real me. The "I've stared cancer in the face and beaten it" me.
My fight is over. I've finished all my treatments, both chemotherapy & radiation. I've emerged on the other side of survival with a stronger realtionship with myself and a deeper love of my husband and the people and things that are important to me.
These have undoubtedly been the worst months of my life. I have never felt so alive as I do these days. It feels good to do even the most mundane things - because I can. I am alive and ready to put this cancer shit behind me and get on with the business of living.
Today is America's Independence Day, so too shall it be my Independence Day. This is where I sign off and say thank you to everyone who supported me over these past few months. I couldn't have made it through without all of you!! I am done with Bob, so I'm done with this blog. Of course there will be updates quarterly, then annually with my follow-up scans, but for now I'm ready to not have cancer consume me anymore. I'm ready to have my life back. I'm ready to not feel the need to let everyone know all about me - no offense but a girl's gotta have her privacy :) Should anything transpire I will certainly keep you all posted. Should there be a need (i.e. babies or travel or other happy life things) to let you all know about I will certainly start a new blog all together as I would not dare share my new life with Bob anymore. I am free of him and I'd like to stay that way.
For those of you who would like to stay in contact, please feel free to email me anytime (heathersilva@cox.net). I'm not always the best at returning emails or calls immediately but I'll work on that.
4 comments:
Congratulations Heather. Best wishes.
Way to go Heather. You are an inspiration to many I am sure.
Good-bye Bob...HELLLLOOOOO HEATHER!!!!
Sharon (a friend of your mama's)
Wow, guess I've been really done with Bob too as I'm just tuning into your blog after a long absence, only because you told me this morning that you posted your final "weeks ago". Thought I was done with the tears, but here they are again...this time for pure happiness and gratefulness that I have, that we all have, our precious Heather back....feistiness and all. I love you girl!
from your proud mama!
Heather, after being diagnosed with breast cancer in July 05, I searched the internet hoping to find something to help - I found YOU and your site. I completed the dose-dense chemotherapy (AC/T) on Dec 30th and tomorrow is my last day of radiation. It's been a long, painful, crazy journey. I have to tell you that I greatly appreciate your blog. It was EXTREMELY helpful to find someone sharing their experience. I worked full time and wasn't able to attend any 'group' thing so haven't had a chance to learn from many others. Lumpectomy, w/chemo and radiation is fairly new, so I didn't know anyone who could provide experience and advice. Just knowing that what I was feeling was so similar to what you had gone through - and survived, gave me such hope!!!!! Thank you very much! I'm SO ready to be Done!
My doctor said I'll have a new weird experience after tomorrow, one of not fighting but Living.... I'm very ready for that!
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