21) Starting the up swing...finally

So this week has been kind of a struggle. I've been plagued by gastrointestinal madness. I went in to do my weekly blood work on thursday and ended up talking with a Marraige & Family Therapist at the cancer center. She was awesome and I was shocked at how much I really do need someone to talk to. She thought some couples sessions with Rene & I was really mandatory too, so hopefully we'll be seeing her together next week. My blood work was pretty much the same but I made an appointment to see Patty the NP for my GI stuff the following day. Thursday night I had the absolutelt worst night of sleep. My stomach was aching so bad all night I tossed and turned, looking at the clock at almost hour intervals. Needless to say, Friday I woke up feeling like shit. Rene drove me to the center for my appt with Patty. I talked with her about everything and what meds I can try to relieve this discomfort now and next time. I have also developed a rash in the shape of a small round band-aid right where the small round band-aid covered up my nuelasta shot last friday. She wasn't quite sure about that but suggested that I not get a band-aid next time and see what happens. But, on the way home I started to notice the same type of rash creeping up on my fingers, specifically on my knuckles. Its itchy! I hate itchy!! I pretty much felt like shit the rest of the day. Took a nap for a while and then watched tv. Rene and I went to see a movie just before the dinner crowd. He was worried I wouldn't make it through, but I managed. We saw "Million Dollar Baby" and it was so moving! It took everything inside of me not to make sobbing sounds while I cried. I know I wasn't alone because I distinctly heard someone else slip with their sobs. I was all for Jamie Foxx winning the oscar but if Clint takes it I won't be disappointed. That's about all for now. Hopefully over the next couple of days I will be feeling back to my old self.